He doesn't know who I am, and I'm his own mother. He goes day in an day out thinking that I don't love him, thinking that I'm incapable of feeling emotion, not knowing how much I long to communicate with him. God hasn't just cursed my son, he's cursed me too. What is a mother without the love of her child? I see the loneliness in his eyes and yet I can do nothing but cry inside. He doesn't know what I'm feeling, he doesn't know how much I want. I see him go out into the world searching for that someone that will teach him how to live and his role on this planet knowing that I can never provide him with the necessities he longs for. The fact that I can only show my love through physically saving him on occasion from harm in the world pains me in a way that he will never know. He suffers, but I do too.
I have this feeling inside that my baby has been hurt. He's different now; he's more violent, more cynical, increasingly agitated. What has the world done to my baby? There is nothing I can do but sit in my cave and watch the world slowly destroy him bit by bit. It's painful to watch his inevidable demise. Why can't I help him? Why must I have this blessed curse? Just once to talk to him, to tell him how I feel, to let him know he's not alone and unloved in this world. If only...
Hi Leila,
ReplyDeleteThis is a very interesting view from Grendel's mother about fate. I knew how horrified she was at Grendel going out into the real world but I never though of it as a fate thing.
Nice piece!!!
Before reading this entry I would not have imagined Grendel's mother to think something like this, but now that you have put it on paper (or screen rather) it seems extremely fitting. Thank you for sharing your ideas!
ReplyDeleteLeila, you have taken a really interesting approach to this assignment and to the inter workings of Grendel's mother's mind, which is something that we don't see much of in the novel. I thought that you did a really nice job composing this post. There is a very apparent maternal aspect to what you have her saying in this journal entry, and i would have never really thought of her to have been like this-- but after reading your post, i can definitely see it and can appreciate it. Great job!
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ReplyDeleteIt is really interesting to read your piece after having just written a similar piece myself. We both chose to write from the perspective of Grendel's mother, yet we did it so differently! I really like how you made her a character with a strong sense of caring for her son. You did a good job capturing a mother's concern and despair for her son. Nice work! :)
I like your idea that she would feel just as God-cursed as her son. It's something that both links them and keeps them apart from each other. Nice touch. Very nice series of posts.
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